Creatively speaking….So I said that I would come home from IU and dive right in creating…wherever inspiration took me. Well, I have actually done some creating, yes. Not to the extent that I thought I would but I'm still fine tuning this thing called life. In the last couple of months, with my retuning, re-prioritizing…my family has been SO MUCH happier…which makes me HAPPY…which makes them happy…it's an endless circle of HAPPY! When Mama's happy…everything is good. It's amazing how much we feed off our loved ones happiness. How you can't be happy with others until you are happy with yourself, inside. When all you feel is unrest, that things are undone, and out of control…happy is just lost. So attending to my family was my first order of business…and I feel like I'm in control now. I'm enjoying moments. I find myself looking at the kids and taking a mental snapshot…"I don't want to miss this, I don't want to forget this." The house is in order, things are ginning along and I'm maintaining. It feels good.
Trying to reach out to some FRIENDS now. It is difficult to maintain and nurture friendships when you can barely keep track of yourself and your family, home. So I have been very guilty of neglecting some relationships over the last couple of years. Anybody that knows me can attest that I'm not a CALL-er. I'm the CALL-ee generally. In other words, I just don't call a lot of people to chat because I never really feel that I have enough spare time for that. Now, if you do get me on the phone…don't let the previous statements lead you to believe that I'm not a TALK-er…because after 30 min of chatter you'll wonder HOW AM I GOING TO GET THIS LADY OFF THE PHONE!??? LOL! I attribute this factor to the lack of human contact that I have! LOL! With that said…I'm going to try to be a better friend. 🙂
Anyway…I'm also working on ME. Some of y'all know that I set a pretty lofty goal for myself earlier this year. To lose 50 lb. by the end of the year…my 15th wedding anniversary. Well, a couple of months ago, I pretty much plateaued at 25 lb loss. Okay, I didn't really plateau as much as I "laid off" my diet. I got so busy working that I quit running/walking and well, here I am. Still maintaining my 25 lb. loss which I'm SO proud of. I lost 3 pant sizes and I can now shop in REGULAR stores. Y'all just don't know what an AMAZING feeling that is, and some of you do :) This week, I kick it back into high gear and I'm going to try to lose what I can between now and December! Great time to start trying to diet, right? LOL! Well, it's not as much about dieting as it is cutting back to meet my goal and adding back in my exercise routine. I feel confident that I can get the scale dropping again. So I tell all of you and hopefully it will help me be accountable in some way. I'm even considering committing to a 5k here in town in November…we'll see?
I look around and I truly am happy. I see that Scott is happy with me and that makes my heart swell…loving him more than ever. Of course, I have concerns, worries…don't we all…but I choose not to dwell on those. I pack them all up neatly and put them in my prayer basket–and hand it right over to the Lord. God has taught me over the last couple of months–corrected me where I lacked faith, provided where I have had need and reassured me where I have questioned myself. He has spoken in a voice that I have heard–that has directed my heart. It's really amazing…to see faith working.
This verse really inspired me…and spoke to my soul
For whom the LORD loveth he correcteth; even as a father the son in whom he delighteth. Happy is the man that findeth wisdom, and the man that getteth understanding. Proverbs 3:12-13